  I are disappointed. Boy with dumb girlfriend seems to have fallen for her. And, it seems, that I was correct in thinking I was too smart to date. Sad at loss of sex, but there is plenty more where that came from. It's probably better if I don't do anything with someone just to spite their girlfriend...it's wrong, doncha know. Also he says he would lose himself if he lost her...which makes me think that she was standing next to him as he was typing...but if someone has found that kind of love [that inevitably leads to pain, at this age] then good for him. This brings up a question I ask the world: Why look for "The One" at this age? With Boy I can understand, he's had 'fun' but with most of my other friends it seems they are bent on finding a soul mate.
I analyze this as an attempt to quench the unrelenting thirst not to be lonely. I have just chosen a different approach...though I have not yet acted upon it. I am HONESTLY not interested in a relationship. I have seen so much pain come from them, and so little good. I ask anyone who reads this: What Is The Point? How many couples are going to stay together, especially when started at this age? We are fucking teenagers, what happened to having fun? Is this all a manifestation of our angst?
I find it all confusing and undesirable. I want to fuck. Plain and simple. Though maybe not that plain...I want to remain friends with the people I screw...so then I can screw em' again! Sex and friendship are two amazing parts of life added together, how can one go wrong? Me and these crazy tangents I go off on....ah me... 
