  Well, it's been a while since my last post. The internet privledges were taken away the the barracks because someone decided to be an idiot and download unauthorized software.
So there's all this stuff about a security breach, and all sorts of higher ups are involved. And, I'm now suffering from Internet-shopping withdrawls. I don't know how I'll be able to handle it. Otherwise, things are good. Another day, another crush. I'm stupid, I know. And, for some reason, every crush I've ever had has always followed the same pattern.
I think it's me...... If the guy is interested in me, there's something wrong with him. If I'm the one crushing on the guy, then he thinks there's something wrong with me. I'll never get laid. That's all there is to it. I will die sexually frustrated. Sometimes I wonder if I should have gotten married to Matthew. Even though I didn't love him. Sometimes I can't tell if I was lonelier with him than I am now. I just know that I'm crazy lonely right now. I don't have anybody that understands where I'm coming from.
That's all I have for now. I know I need to start whining about things other than matters of the heart, but it's at the forefront. Hopefully that'll change soon. (Eleven days until I can be a civilian on weekends, and that means civilian sex!!! ) Love ya 
