  Hi. My name's David and this is my first blog and first blog entry. Here you'll probably over time find out quite a bit about me and the way I think about various subjects. First off, I'm not giving away my full name straight off 'cause I want to be able to speak freely about *anything* at all without worrying who's going to read this and know who it is. It's not that my secrets are so deep and dark as all that, it's just that there are things I'll want to say here that I haven't told my family yet for instance, like the fact of my gayness. Plus, some of my ideas may sound a little weird at first hearing at times. Plus, I might have the occasional political commentary to give which might not delight the U.S. Attorney General for instance. And he's scary. (Damn it, that whole administration is scary. ) Right now I'm living at home in Seattle with my parents with a chronic pain problem which mysteriously appeared and might mysteriously disappear any time. The docs don't know what it is. I'm stuck at home basically for the time being, which does cramp my style, but it'll give me plenty of time to blog atcha so it's not all bad, right? Right. And you can email me if you want to (iwnmutef at earthlink dot net). Just be nice, 'k?
And don't spam me, 'cause if you do I'll... I'll... I dunno, delete it or something and feel faintly irritated. Random idea for you to toy with -- reality is composed only of sensation, order and change/energy. I'm trying to figure out whether there's anything I've ever known which can't be analyzed into those three components, outside merest imagination (which can be a subtle and even insidious habit, depending on what you're talking about), and I'm having a hard time of it. Your regular physical object? I only know it as changing sensation in space (space being an aspect of order) with an additional quality of number (another aspect of order).
Everything else I imagine I know about the object is so far as I can tell purely imagination. But this is probably crazy, or at least I've forgotten something somewhere or something like that. But I can't help wondering if matter is only ordered energy yielding sensation upon measurement (and measurement merely a change in sensation-order order via energy/change, with measurement = mental engagement and mind = the set of mental engagements). But, see what my life has come to? I actually spend *time* thinking up junk like that. And it probably is junk, too.
Pardon me, I'm slightly stir-crazy stuck here at home. So, what can come of blog writing anyway? I confess I've never even read one yet, though when I'm done here I'm gonna go check out a few for fun. I want my blog to be *purposeful*, to be *useful*, not merely self-centered bullshit, though there'll probably be a bunch of that along the way here knowing me. But have blogs changed lives? Have they brought Enlightenment? The promise of life-long friendship?
or even, dare one hope, love? I could go for any of that, or a simple increase of happiness. That's what it's all for, you see. Happiness. *Everyone's* happiness. And happiness free of suffering worthy of the name at that. Oh, not necessarily bubbly overjoyous happiness, of course. Happiness comes in many forms. But it's all for our happiness, and it's our mutual happiness together that's what's worth striving for, you and me. People lose sight of that pretty easily, but think about it, okay? How can my blog make you and me happy together in this difficult world? Maybe we can help get each other's priorities right about stuff. With all of our happiness the goal, of course, not *only* yours and mine. Can't afford to have anyone left out, you see, or next time you or I might be left out in turn. I have this idea that maybe Nature somehow gets *trained* by us, to be like us, picking up our habit patterns as Her own.
That Nature is cruel because *we* have been cruel, and kind because we have been kind, from the beginningless past. And that we need to try extra hard to be good, to make all of each other happy, so that eventually Nature as a whole will be like that for all of us, and we for Her. If only we *work* hard enough at it, together, and play at it of course too... and maybe play is even more to the point, at least in terms of the spirit of the thing... Couldn't that work?
I mean, in the *very* long run? If not, what else? 'Cause something has to. I for one can't stand all the suffering people are forced to go through, including myself what with this mysterious chronic pain problem and all. So, I've made a vow. I've vowed that someday everyone, and I mean *everyone* everywhere in the whole of Nature/the universe/the multiverse/everything, is going to be perfectly happy and free from suffering. And I mean it terribly seriously, too. I don't know how I'm going to manage it if even the Fully Enlightened Beings haven't managed to do it, *yet* being a keyword here, but I will.
I owe it to you people, and to myself. See, I've had some happiness in this life, so I know what that's like. And I like it. And I sure know suffering too, and I despise the stuff. I have most of this lifetime left to do my best for us all, and that means for you, my hoped-for friend, my dear reader. And I plan to live to 100 easy, even if this pain problem doesn't go away, heavens forfend, and spend it all for us, so that gives me a few score years right there to work with. Plus there's karma and reincarnation, both of which I'm personally convinced of, so that gives me quite a long time to work with really.
Actually, I believe we've been around through an infinite past and will be around for an infinite future, so that gives me loads of time in a way. But the sooner we all make each other *really* happy, *perfectly* happy, the better, don'tcha think? I honestly, honestly, most honestly believe that it's possible, in the long run. Even inevitable, because that's what every living being wants, at least deep enough down, and some beings already seem to have achieved perfect happiness for themselves, and like microcosm like macrocosm, right?
Right.
Don't even *think* of arguing either, see, 'cause I've made up my mind, and when I *really* make up my mind things happen. So. I promise to make you perfectly happy forever if you don't manage it otherwise first. Just have patience.
Totally healing the All is tricky business. But it can and will be done. That's a vow. And that's the start of a blog. Feedback to me if you like, if you're not cruel. If there's one thing I can't stand it's cruelty. Maybe we can be friends or something. 
