  everything is going horribly... I used to like myself a lot more when I didn't talk to ppl about my problems.
I guess by not stating them, I couldn't keep track of just how many there were. I wouldn't know what could be done... I'd never have to listen to another person's ideas. I wouldn't see how they dealt w/ things so much better than I do. But now that I know, and I know the things I must change, it's all the more disheartening b/c I know I won't/can't change.
So there they are... laid out in front of me. And I can do nothing. I disgust myself... yet why do I keep mentioning the faults of others when I have so many more of my own? w/e I've become... I hate it. 
