  geez...i'm sorry. yah u prolly should have gone to foster. i originally thought u shouldn't go because you had no idea what you were doing, but i forgot that NCX is all about experience, and ur right nobody else knows what they're doing either. dammit, i'm sure you guys could have won. oh well..ur rihgt, there's always deer park. but i feel bad so remind me to be your perssonal CCX bitch these two weeks. well, in most other aspects of my life, i am also losing it. i've talked to almost nobody this week....and to those i have talked to, it was just not the same. i always had something else on my mind: school. and despite all this taking-over-of-my0life, i still forgot a lot of stuff and didnt get stuff done in time..... mr allen shall kill me. damn i need to quit something. well i just spent a hundred bucks on barnes and noble .com, and then like 30 on circuit city.com.
i thought shopping would make me feel better but it hasn't: i bought school stuff......ugh. the only thing i need now is to watch SLC punks, and i'll be set to quit school, steal a car, break up with josh, and start over a new life as a hick secretary in kansas. life is sweet. somebody call me.....my parents have forbade me from making calls. oh yah, that's another thing. they're being eerily nice. i went out yesterday to "eleanor'sh ouse" and they knew i was lying because eleanor came over to MY house looking for me, and then they didn't even bug me (too much) about it.
me and my mom were watching tv and she just turned around and asked me, nice and motherly-like (WOWOWOWOWOW that in itself is a miracle) "you sure you dont want to tell me where you really were?". and my dad.......he just gave me his credit and was like : buy what you need online. maybe the trust level is rising......and now i dont even have the will or time to or energy to abuse it. yue, call me! poor david. jane 
