  ugh... another sign of entrenchment: my old blogs are so much cheerier. these just keep getting worse... WHY??? i thought that i'd gotten over everything... but obviously i haven't. ugh... i hate being so sensitive... why can't i be normal and just not care about anything? well... not care THAT much anyway. why can't i just think that everything's good w/o considering what "everything" even is? grrrrr i'm skipping entire words in my sentences b/c i see them in my head i see a lot in my head... my stupid head... stupid thinking head 
