  oh right one more thing. it's come to my attention that a realy annoying trait i have is that i am easily swayed by the wrong people. yue asked me today: "if jason asked you to do something, and liang asked you to do the same thing, who would u rather go with? " i knew the answer right away. and it hasn't changed despite a few months of personal denial. i dont know why it ihasn't. i LIKE hanging out with liang more , and every experince with jason is merel a disapiintment, and i know it.
i just want to say i'm sorry. mostly to liang cuz she tries so hard to steer me back on the right track, but to everyone. i listen i really do. i was just about to make an excuse for it, but i guess i really shouldn't. i suppose i go for the buzz it/he gives me. it's a drug. 
