  you can say that i'm disappointed. or maybe just not overly content? i mean this year has been... just a normal year. dismal in ways. i've witnessed and taken part in the breaking of the fellowship that was (some are convinced never was) BAM. i've watched ppl change from conservative asian to whatever they consider themselves now (jane and i think they're white prep wannabes who will never really be preps b/c they aren't white) and still criticize others for doing the same. i've watched other ppl read certain books *cough cough* and forget that human nature is not evil. i watched the same ppl ruin my life and my happiness for nothing (or maybe they get a kick out of it. who knows/who cares) each consecutive week. still others are just recluses that i no longer hear from (partly b/c they don't want to talk to me).
maybe that's what i'll be next year. a hermit. that way i won't be involved in all the politics and such that is part of being in a certain "group. " there used to be a time when you were either someone's friend or you weren't. now it's like she's not your friend so i can't be her friend. oh well. i doubt anyone would understand what i'm talking about. if not for lack of trying, for lack of caring. i don't blame you if you don't care. in fact, i see no reason that i do. 
