  ever feel like when you've got something you've been pining for a long time now... like you suddenly think that maybe you didn't deserve it or you're unsure it's what you've really wanted/needed? i'm in that state right now. a singleton. and unsure of it. mmm... maybe i'm just feeling different. a little more free - or too free, that time creeps up on you when you've suddenly had too much time.
i won't brood over this. i can't afford to let my guard down or my self-esteem. i shall look forward to each new waking day (afternoon) and smile, thinking that what i do is for myself and my family. and better still, concentrate on enjoying and building my career. what else could be so wonderful? i am after all, picking myself up and mixing around with a whole lot of friends again. that sense of camaderie never left me. i love to be surounded by people. people who are different and always keeps me on my toes. yes, i get bored easily. and there's nothing i like best than surprises and the unpredictable. years ago, that wouldn't have been me.
i would've always dreamed of knowing, of being able to control my present and future. now, i've learnt to live by the day. it is pretty exciting. =) exhillarating and adrenalin pumping. "A thing of beauty is a joy for ever: Its loveliness increases; it will never Pass into nothingness; but still will keep A bower quiet for us, and a sleep Full of sweet dreams, and health, and quiet breathing. " ~Endymion, John Keats 
