  i want to be gone to be swallowed into earth's core, so i will love and hurt no more. why can't i be left alone with this miserable heart that leads me astray? leave me alone! let me be... or else i will hurt and be hurt until eternity. for my heart's become a curse so sure, of its loneliness it makes my face azure.
let me cry myself to sleep and in this tears i do weep i shall be hidden in recluse and to the world, i shall be of no use. i am tired of life's love suffering. time waits, time heals... time makes you suffer it's tumultuous meals. i feel like hiding under my sheets, and let the world pass me by and be forgotten. i wish Gary would give me some time. he's driving me to insanity with so many pressures and questions worse than before! *sigh* i shall only endure the punishment because i asked for it. my actions have done him wrong, hence i shall face the consequences. as for my heart, i wish to be done with it.
for even as it cries ill, it causes my mind and body pain in doing what it thinks is right. i don't want to make any more decisions right now. i thought i've had enough for the past two weeks. i've had second thoughts and become stressed to the core. i shall just hide from the world as though i'm no more... 
