  ever feel like things are finally going your way, just to have it all taken away. you end up back exactly where you were before, but its not the same. its worse now, just because you almost had what you wanted. its pretty painful. this morning i mentioned 2 things i would like to do, and they were both met with nos.
maybe thats why i feel like this is going to be a gloomy day, just not a nice way to wake up. i feel like moping around. i feel listless. i feel really tired inside. blah. it will pass. it always does. in the meantime, i just need to make the most of it, and ride it through. better times will be upon me one again im sure. 
