  things arnt resolved but alittle better . "How do you think it makes me feel to take a great trip to Bermuda with out my own mother. If she didnt pass on, we would never have gone to Bermuda. You know the guilt I feel? Going out to dinner was something I didnt want to do either for a while because mom could never truely enjoy going out to dinner, so how could I? I just cant get past a lot of stuff and I guess i am not as "better now" then everyone thought I was. " 8/6/03 
