  As I continue to sit here and ponder what I have just shared with the world, I have decided something. I'm going to stop taking my medication. I'm also going to try to quit smoking. I'm sick of these vices... it's bullshit. I'm stronger than this, I know it! I'm not going to let some fucking tobacco or depression get the best of me. Damn it all to hell, you hear me? I can do this... if I have to, I'll do it alone. The world can suck my fucking ass. 
