  Library. Bundles of fun, I know. F, just now I got to go on the orange swings and it was sexy and yep.
But Marky-Mark-Creepy-Jimmy-Jim-James-I-want-your-last-name-Sexton was thurr and yep, he's an odd one. Unnyways, Katie is hurr with me and she it typin too....yippe....I am bored and all sweaty from Gymeven tho we only SWUNG. Right now I am going through a crisis of whether or not SWINGED is a word. And then I decided I don't really care!!
This morning Vinny was dropping off Tasia as usual and I wansn't in the caf I was outside with Matt and Nicki and Tougie and I ran over to say Hi to Vin and Arcadio comes over like Let's go, Let's go..and pulling me away I'm like JC Arcadio WTF!? So I follow Matt and Nicki and Tougie across to the arena for some s t r a n g e reason and DJ and ...sarah... were there I guess as usual but I wouldn't know and oh yeah, WOULDN'T CARE FOR MY LIFE!!
Anywhoo...I saw Maureen smizzoking and I was like bllaaaahh hun u can't keep on doin that :( and she was talking to um...this girl who did her hair like me though she did it before me thats the only way I know her.
Yep. But they were talking about stuff and Maureen said she got to make out with Brenda and she was all excited about it and then I was like bllllaaaaah summore so when Brenda came trotting over I left and joined the rest a the gang...Matt, Nicki, Tougie, Deej, and ........sarah. They were talking about Pyro-day which apparently today is so I just sat and attempted to, yet again, sketch Matt. I'm telling you, that's what the fucking movie Mission: Impossible should have been about because know what, it is!
And Nicki and I talked a bit, actually she kept cracking up for NO reason so I was laughing at her a lot too and there was just tons and tons o' laughin' goin' down. The end! Speakin of going down...I miss my Fitz so much, I really do. Katie is here and I am thinking about how some ppls call her Fitzy too because her middle name is Fitzgerald and anyway I don't see why she doesn't like her name, it's so pretty-Kathryn Fitzgerald Foley-so I think she will be Kathy from now on...(*Katie I betcha you're reading this with a GRR face on...mwah, i love ya!!
haha) Okies, I am sooooo fucking female these days, so today I a little bit better pulled a Dani Webster but I wanna shave my head and go GQin at Eblens (Dad: "Do you suppose Eb and Len are gay? ") and then I can be her...Speaking of... I was thinking about it, and I am a bit like Dani, I really really really really really am, though I bet ya all think I'm crazy for saying that (those of you who read The Game ) but I am!!
Not like you all probably see me, but I am!! And on Cut ,I am not not not Callie. I am not! I am like...the Amanda/Manda. I am.
Yep.
Callie's got the amazing insight thing like I do, but she could pull off not talking to anyone...it is 12:24, but I think they're gonna hold the bell for a while.
Okay, so I'm deff deff not Scratch...she's like the Angelina Jolie in Girl, Interrupted ...Okay, let's talk about something important...last night I was on the phone with Fitzy, but I wasn't exactly. I'm getting a lot better at Astral Projection, and I love it, it is my escape, my cure. I can run away inside my head and run my hands through the waves of his hair and feel him crash all over me...I wrote that last night, you like?
I'm thinking of writing a book a la Francesca Lia Block ...or a Koertge like Brimstone Journals thing going on, all in poetry. That would be such a challenge for a writer like me though because I am like obssesed with details. I am thinking about what it would be like to be blind...to never be able to see colors or angles...or to be deaf, never get to hear your sweet whisper in your ear and all that romantic crap.
That makes me think of Donkey which makes me think of Noble Steeds and Stallions which makes me think of the Faun I drew in MCAS and he's pretty gorgeous, but that makes me think of Arcadio trying to tell me he takes the form of a taur and he's like asking me the diff between a taur and a tyr and I'm like okay, so how you gonna tell me what I drew if you don't know?
This makes me mad. I chain think. You know how some people like chainsmoke, well I chain think, REAL BAD. (adhd its not my fault I swear) but yeah urm that makes me think of this poem I wrote once about Batteries Included Jeff, aka Jeff Chewy...about that time he came and talked to me about ADHD and that I should start smoking pot because it will mellow me out and I was trying to picutre him as a young'n and it was soo cute cuz he's a cutie as it is, bein 20 and all.
I am going to write a Love/Hate poem about Fitz, like I did with Mike, but I don't know if I have much to draw from because it's seeming like our whole relationship is one big dream, a cloud of pixiedust that I'm trying to peer through, it's all energy. Whoopsie, bell. More later. Love. 
