  they say dreams are the flowers that bloom in your heart. I used to dream of flowers, but the weeds have taken over. was reading a post today. talking about how one good thing that happens in your life is replaced by a bad thing. And yes, if you always look for that one bad thing to happen, it will. But it closes your eyes to the posibility for the good things.
Same with if you sit here waiting for things to happen, one day you will awake and find out that things did happen, you was just to busy waiting, you didnt see them fly by. Mine has flown by. Funny how that saying is sooo true, that you never realize what you have till its gone. dont you sometimes wish that you had the power to know how to change a situation, to manipulate life to make it all that you want. To perhaps change the way you did things. But honestly, if given another chance, would you change anything. or would you still continue to do the same thing. i am proof of that more than likely you wont. i was blessed to find myself in the exact same situation that i had been a few years ago. And a few years ago, i made the same mistake as i did this time.
But the last time it happened, i did not know that it was just a game. Today, i knew , it was just a game, but still...... i did the same thing. But i guess today i wanted the same thing as i did years ago. and i knew today, as i knew then, i never would have it. so perhaps thats the reason i did it again. Guess i just wanted to be worth the effort. Just wanted someone to take notice of me.
To want me for more than pleasing them. lol. how funny is that??? People claim to know me, but no one has ever taken longer than 5 minutes to talk with me. or spend more than an hour with me, to see what's inside. To know all that i have to offer. But on another note, FAT CHICKS. HAHAHAHAH. Good God, as much as i hate to admit it, fat chicks are fuckin stupid. Or at least some of the ones that come in to my store. Like this one old lady i got in here. She tells me oh well i am a plus size, but i am not that plus.
HAHAHAHA . She was clearly a size 2x if not larger. It took all i had to not just laugh in her face. then the next question she spews out her mouth is, where is your clearance rack. I felt like tellin her at wally marts where you shop. but she was old and i couldn't be that cruel. One day i to will live on a fixed income. lol yea and when pigs fly . 
