  Oh christ.... christ christ christ so much pain so much pain....... it just doesnt end. why? so much pain.............. http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=charlybob can she not even talk to me that she has to just say that ive been waiting. im not even iming her about this. In all of my planning and expectancies this never came up.. trying to calm down with a dagger in my heart..... i still love you......If i let go my suffering ends but im afraid of losing her forever. if i hold on, shes going to run away. 
