  im pretty sure im going insane. because im liking charlene again audience of rebecca and maddi:NO!!!
idiot >_ yeah pretty much iunno.It's just really surreal. both the break up and the happiness. the breakup doesnt seem real to me which is going to crush me in the end. i just hope someone tells me whats going on so i can realign my life. this jealousy thing is getting to me. it translates as ,"she carees about me,. she still likes me. guh and her enojying being on guys right in front of my face doesnt help this confusion. gah stupid women!
...who are the only ones who read this...... poof.... I don't know if im doig anything right. i really want her. but i dont know if i could do that. so i guess the best thing would be being friends and then seeing if we go off from there or stay there. i fear my self. not cutting. just unsure about the future..... 
