  Well tonight was speed dating. As you may recall that was supposed to happen back in April but didn't due to lack of interested parties. This time around there were enough people signed up, but very few came. Five to be precise. So needless to say it didn't go ahead, but I did sit with these people and talked for a few hours. I had a good time. Plus the goal was accomplished; That being the going out and meeting strangers in a public setting.
Take that social anxiety!! Although my somewhat lack of social skill did allow me to make a fool of myself a couple times. Or so I believe. I didn't mean to talk as much, or as openly about myself as I did. Oh well I can't take it back so there's no point dwelling on that. I also won a coupon for a free brunch at Vortex. I believe I will enjoy that. There is a display of art there by Trevor VanDen...ummm....spelling this wrong but here goes....VanDeneiyden...I don't think I'm even close. Very interesting pictures, some including hot boys, and one including "fellow" as he is referred to in this blog. For those who don't know "fellow" is the last person I dated for any amount of time, and I am still left with some unresolved feelings over the whole situation. The picture makes me smile. I wish it didn't but it does. I was always smiling when I looked at him.
Oh well. So now I end up dating yet another nice guy who doesn't seem to give a shit about me. But not in a bad way. More of just an impartial way, as though, it's good that I'm there. But it wouldn't make a lot of difference if I weren't. My priorities are all wrong I know. I don't know why I feel this need to be in a relationship. Or why I seem to think it is the link in the chain of my life that is keeping everything from coming together.
Wow that metaphor was terrible. The one thing I have always wanted is to stay up all night talking to someone...just talking...perhaps walking on the waterfront when it's later, and quiet. I've never really done that with anyone. Well I walked along the waterfront with that professor from SMU that time, but there was no relationship like intent there. But i have definately never stayed up all night talking to a guy about life, or even generic things like music or movies or what have you. I don't want to work tomorrow. And I have this rather strange pain in my right pectoral area...I'm not sure what's causing it.
Perhaps it will flare up and I'll have to go home early. I'm not sure why I'm hoping for such a selfish thing. I suppose because it's much more likely that I will be injured and sent home from work then something more selfless, like world peace. World peace??? Talk about pipe dreams. Alright enough rambling for now. I guess I am trying to make up for a lack of updates with a long entry. Well if you read it, then good for you. Your attention span is much higher than mine. 
