  "Quarter Life Crisis". I've stopped going along with the crowd and started to comprehend that there are many things about myself that I didn't know and really don't like. I've started feeling vulnerable, wondering where I'll be in a year or two. Then I get anxious, because I don't even know where I am right now. I started realizing that most people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that I thought were so close aren't exactly the greatest people I've ever met, and the people I've lost touch with are some of the most significant.
I look at my job... it's not even neighboring what I thought I would be doing. I know that I'm going to have to start at the bottom - and that really scares me. My opinions have gotten stronger. I see what others are doing and find myself judging more because suddenly I realize that I have certain boundaries in my life, I'm constantly adding to my list of what is agreeable and what isn't. One minute I'm insecure, and then the next... "secure". I smile and weep with the greatest forces in my life. I feel detached and intimidated and doubtful. Suddenly, change is the antagonist and I'm trying to adhere to the past for dear life. But the past is wandering further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where I am or move forward. I get my heart broken and wonder how someone I loved could do so much damage to me. I know that I'm not a bad person.
I go through the same emotions and questions over and over. I talk to my friends about the same old topics because I cannot seem to find a resolution. I worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for myself... And, while winning the race would be fantastic, right now, I'd just like to be a contender. 
