  It's hard to believe it's almost the middle of May already. The kids are really ready to be outdoors.
Thanks for all of your on-going prayers. Nights have been MUCH better! Praise God! We all continue to try and process where we find ourselves and how we're feeling. I'm really struggling with feeling sorry for myself. I keep thinking, "Our big beautiful backyard... the patio in our backyard is bigger than the livingroom and dining area in this apartment combined!...
the kids have a swingset in our yard, and a sandbox, and a pool and a mini-trampoline, and a bunch of outdoor toys and games... And our big beautiful maple tree gives wonderful shade on the hot days... We have a fabulous patio set that we love to use for parties and community stuff....I miss it all so much. " But then I think of other people who don't have all this nice stuff and may never have any stuff like this... I should be glad that I have what we do have here. And I keep trying to remind myself that it will all be there next summer when we're back in the house.
It's hard though. I want to "be content in whatever state I find myself in" )even if it is Michigan..) {okay, that was a joke...}) I was referring to what Paul wrote in the NT somewhere. I really do want to find my contentment in Christ. So why do I feel so displaced? Why do I feel so restless... like I want to go home? Why can't I just have a happy attitude about things here? After all, we all made it out of the house unharmed , right?
Yeah, I know. I should be thankful. And I am. Really. I guess I'm just way more materialistic than I thought I was.... 
