  TGIF, seriously this week just needs to stop, it's the weekend, and I can just chill out, get sleep and have fun. I just think it funny that I can think and feel one way and everyone else around me decides to think that I'm thinking or feeling the exact opposite way. I actually just don't get it. I'm percieved as someone I don't want to be and as someone I'm not. Yes I'm lazy, but I don't lack effort, I always give 100%, always. I hate the fact that people don't think I do and it seriously makes me cry to know people think that, it makes me feel like I have no point in trying if people are going to think that way about me after everything. Yes, I may be tierd, but that doesn't mean I'm not giving effort because I always do and always always try to. I also don't like the fact that people are trying to tell me how to act and that I basically need to change. I may not have the same motivation aspects as some, but that doesn't mean I'm not motivated, I just do it a little differently then everyone else.
Urgh I think it makes it 10 times worse when one, people are saying I'm being a certain way, when I'm not or not trying to, and they're not even telling me. Second when my mom tries to come into the situation and tell me what she thinks how I'm acting and that I need to change it. She doesn't know anything about the sport, she's not on the field, she shouldn't be telling me what the fricken do.
Urgh. So frusturated. Whatever all my frustration and tierdness and everything else bugging me is now out the window and tomorrow will be a new day, and it's prom and I'm going to have a lot of fun no matter what. All I know is that once Friday hits, everything else is done and over, TGIF. Kati 
