  Some things never change....I used to go out running when things got to me. Why can't i do that now? Nowadays, I'm weak...I just let it fester and build up. Three years ago, I worried about my health, money, and my family. Now, it's mostly all about money and family. And somehow, those two have combined into one big concern.
I'm tired of worrying about my mother and her spending problems now. I'm tired of how everything is changing and nothing will ever be the same. I hate it when people lecture me about this and that. Someone told me that I should break up with Kuan because of religion. Religion means nothing to me anymore...and I've changed in that aspect and if you cannot accept that, then, you are not worthy of my friendship.
Things change and it is my life. let me take care of it the way that I want to. I am happy with Kuan - happier than I have ever been with a guy for this long if that makes any sense. Isn't that supposed to be what matters? My happiness. It seems like that doesn't seem to matter anymore.... security...stability...safety...all add to my happiness.... And to the people that it should matter to, especially at my mother...none of that matters. 
