  and another thing I'M UNEMPLOYED !! i realize full-well that i'm going back to school right away and that this is fair and logical to be unemployed but geeze it's scarry. to have voluntarily pulled myself out of a safe situation to essentially throw myself into the whole school thing when i have no real notion as to wether or not i can do it... to be sure, i needed a change and i really had to get out of ipsos. too long in one place had made me more than a little complacent and that's never a good thing. i'm going to miss that joint though, so many people and experiences that i never would have encountered in the outside world. not to mention the steady paycheque.
the money is a big thing, ever since paul and i have been together i've been the breadwinner. he's been the bread eater. and that's the way it is. not anymore. now i will serriously depend on him to keep the candle burning because even with a student loan it's not like i'm actually making money here. it's a subsistence loan, not a lifestyle-to-which-you-have-become-accustomed loan.
bills are going to be beyond tight for a little bit but at the end of the (10 month) tunnel i should be able to put everything back on track. i just hope the shitstorm can be subdued that long. i'll have to work anyway, i know i will but i can't get into that right away. i plan on giving it about a month if at all possible. there will be quite a few things for me to get used to what with school and all so i'd prefer to have a little time to ease myself into things. then i figgure i'll go call centre again, likely advanis because the pay is fantastic as parttime work goes.
one catch with that is that the student loan people seem to feel that my award will be affected should i earn more than 200 $ a month. bah! that would equate with approximately 24 hours in a month assuming advanis @ 10$/hour. not likely that i'll be able to work such short shifts and so few of them but i'll call the nice people at student finace and see. now that i'm really thinking about it i didn't get the full amount of loan i applied for since as a student i am expected to contribute to my own education. perhaps then, they will allow me to work more than that to overcome the shortfall.
either way, i'll leave off it until the end of september when i'll have settled into my school routine and gotten a handle on the transportation aspect. by my troth, i think that's going to be the sticky wicket but then again it's not like i've never travelled extensively on ets before and for the most part i'll be riding against the major traffic so i should be okay. tomorrow is the test though, first day of school and i need to be there by 8 am. my bus will have me there by 7:54 but when i get there i really have no idea where to go. besides i'm deffinately going to want a smoke before i go in to a different and somewhat scarry place. the upshot is that it's an english class.
i consider myself pretty fluent (you may not) and i expect i should do fine in the course. now if only i knew what textbook was required of me... 
