  so my term is finally over, said term having accounted for the gap in this here blog. well i came out allright, i suppose. no As but two A-, varrious grades of B and a lone dissenting D (ugh! ) i seem to think a bit more of myself than i acctually should; i thought this program would be a cakewalk. cakewalks don't end in D. but i'm through so all i can do is perhaps devote some sort of marginal effort to my second term in the hopes that it will improve.
in other news, my goddamned cyst reared (tee hee) it's prurulent head again this week. 3 in 8 months means that i'm now looking forward to having the whole damned thing excised. won't that make me the popular girl!! maybe they can take an extra 20 lbs off my ass, you know while i'm there. i'm sure our publicly-funded system has plenty of free time for just such procedures! flipped out on my husband again today.
we got a registered letter from the insurance company saying that our insurance would be cut off 04 jan. i had a right fit over it and called danielle (from paul's cell, our land-line having been disconected as promised). well she talked to the company and got back to us and as long as we make the payment plus the next month's payment plus the nsf fee and it's certified or something of that nature we should be fine. thing is, we looked up paul's banking history and lo and behold, it shows not one but two withdrawls for that very date. i think the insurance company just got confused somehow and actually it appears that their error ended up causing my nervous break-dance. either way, i explained to paul that i really can't handle shit like this anymore. i really need to have some kind of stability and balance and security in my life. frivolous things i know but whatcha gonna do? i is what i is. as always he forgives me. he doesn't say as much but he treats me as though he has benevolently decided to extend himself to cover my shortcommings.
it makes me cringe in a way but on the other hand, it's a damn sight easier than trying to reason it out with him. he's at work now, he got his eval this afternoon and i'm hoping with all my heart that it went really well for him. he's lasted out just over six months so i think he deserves this. i only hope that he's behaving appropriately at work.
sometimes i think his adult self goes into a coma whenever i'm arround which is one thing, but i worry that it's never coming back too. i suppose i should go play more neopets games or write out my flashcards for next term or something. i feel really unproductive durring catharsis. g'bi 
