  I had somewhat of a breakdown this morning. I saw John today because he finally came to get his car. And seeing him just put me in a foul mood. That's not a good sign. So that was that, we didn't really talk, I just told him to call me when he gets home from work. But we all know by now that won't happen.
I just want this to be done. But we won't get into it right now. I called my mom today and I could barely talk to her. I was almost in tears, just about everything. I have my days, but today was bad. I didn't think I was going to be able to stop crying.
I just wasn't feeling strong today, I told my mom I wanted to come home. I shouldn't have said that. She just told me to keep my chin up. Then she told me a story about my 4 year old niece and I was cracking up. That's the stuff I miss. Funny story.
Last night Shelly and I went to get some movies, and I wanted popcorn, but when I got home I realized it was Kettle corn, and I just wasn't in the mood for that. I wanted something really buttery, so I made her take me back to the store. We were outside looking at Christmas trees, and I totally tripped over some cement slap and twisted my knee. How stupid is that? Yeah I hurt myself looking at trees. I ate so much sugar last night.
I don't know what it was. I just wanted sugar. But anyway, we watched movies last night. Well I actually watched about 4 movies, because I am an insomniac. Pirates of the Caribbean. Good movie.
At first I was a little weirded out about Johnny Depp, but then I was pleasantly surprised. He was really good in this movie. Then we watched Old School, and then I watched Serendipity, and then I watched Pulp Fiction, but I fell asleep through that. So one thing I love about California, is all the bathrooms have toilet seat covers. I love that. In Illinois you were lucky to find a bathroom with those things.
Public bathrooms are just so disgusting. I hate them. We were in Wal-Mart today and I had to pee, so I went in, and I just cringed. But I opened one of the stalls and there is the toilet seat cover dispenser! Thank you soooo much! Ok, I gotta go, I am rambling on about nothing. 
