  I am in a much better mood today. Yesterday I had a total breakdown. I took John his stuff that I had and got my stuff that he had. And he got a puppy, and it's so cute, but anyway, I was petting it and I just started crying. I was crying before I got there but I stopped myself before I got there. But giving his stuff back to him just made everything so final, and I am not ready for that. I still care about him too much, and I know I shouldn't but I can't help it.
He just started hugging me and told me he hates to see me cry. But once it started I couldn't stop. Once I open up those floodgates, it's all down hill from there. So we are going to dinner tonight so we can talk. But basically he was trying not to get attached to me because I kept saying I was leaving. I can understand that, but he should have talked to me about it. So anyway, that's that. I had to vent about it. Shelly told me today that she could hear me singing last night along with my headphones. I was cracking up but I was kind of embarrassed too! I didn't think I was really singing. HAHA!
It's funny! I have an interview on Monday, I am pretty excited about it. It's at a radiology office, and I really hope I get it. Because first of all, I hate not working, and second of all, I need a job. Plain and simple! And if I don't get it, then I guess my back up plan goes into effect! So anyway, please be praying for me to get it. Thanks! 
