  Okay, so I'm a little stressed right now. I carry all of my tension in my shoulders and neck, and when I am stressing on something, it all bunches up in that area and gives me sight-blinding headaches. But I have found the perfect cure...works every time. First, I get in my car and drive to my sisters house. Then, I get out of my car, enter the house, and pick-up my niece to give her a huge hug and a kiss.
Then I do something to make her laugh hysterically, and poof, magic, no more headache. She's a wonder cure. If could bottle her up and market her, I wouldn't. She's mine, all mine!! Mooowahahaha. Anywho. Other than that, just trying to survive in the real world as a big girl. I thought I would be cute and ask a guy out that I met about a month ago. It didn't occur to me that he might have a girlfriend...mostly because of the way he flirts, but I guess I walked right in to that one. See, when I'm in a relationship, it doesn't even occur to me to flirt with other guys, but I realized long ago that men operate under a whole different set of guidelines.
But that's not the point. The point is, I found out that he is an interpreter for the deaf, because he's the only one in his family that's not deaf, and I was intruiged by that. My cousin is deaf, so the family sort of learned a bit of ASL so we could talk to him. We didn't learn much, and it was mostly our grandparents that studied it, but I digress. I had the wild idea to look some things up in my ASL book, and ask him out that way. He thought it was cute, but as I said before, girlfriend.
Oh well. I think my main problem is that when it comes to romance, I live in a movie, soundtrack and everything, and in the back of my mind, I believe everyone else will react to my romantic gestures with a movie mentality, and that everything will work out fine, with a swell of the music and a dolly back with a fade to black. Am I wrong to want the fairytale? Will I look back on all of this frustration with hilarity at some distant, content section of my existance?
Bleh. Who knows. All I can deal with is what I have today, what I know today. And today, I'm going to eat some chicken for dinner. Nummy. MOVIE QUOTE OF THE DAY Nick Arnstein: You've surprised me. Most people don't surprise me. Fanny Brice: Yeah, well, you're lucky...most of 'em shock the hell out of me. 
