  Just got back to Nashville yesterday with a headache and fever. It's been a trip of fun and suffer. It's fun to hang out with friends and enjoy the new things I never experienced before. It's a suffering since I was basically sick the whole time.
I met Steve in Los Angeles and we began to talk like close friends immediately. He is not the type of ideal guy I would date physically. But I am drawn to him for his warm hearted help and outgoing personality. I want to write down the feeling soon. What I want to say now is, do I feel so lonely since I get back because of lonely for love or miss him so much with true feelings. I don't know and I want to know. I don't get much correspondence since I got back from Steve.
I'm not sure he felt it's too far away for us or we are not good together. I want to be happy and I felt I was happy with him. Hope this will go well. He probably just took off in CA and I want to see him online tonight so that we can chat for a while. It's great to be connected with someone you like and care. 
