  Sigh, well the picnic could have gone a little better. Some of our kids tried to get on the marry-go-round while this other group of kids were just sitting on it doing nothing. Our church group asked nicely if we could use it, and what do they do? They just fucking spaz out at our group, swearing and cussing at a group of little kids that just want to use the merry go round. In the end, our little group of kids came to me and asked if i could sort it out? What the hell am i supposed to do? Go over there and throw rocks at them? In the end i felt like i didn't want to create a situation, "Not that i'm a pussy or anything, it's just a fucking merry go round".
So i just let them get a chaperone to settle it out, good for us because we did get it settled out with everyone being happy. God sometimes i do feel like i'm a pussy when it comes to those things. I always say about how i'm so tough and that i'll beat anyone up if i get pissed off, but the fact is that i'm not that kind of person. I just want everyone in the end to be happy instead of pissed off. When i got back home, our new neighbor, who's about my age, or maybe about 2 years older actually introduced himself to me.
We talked very breifly and he asked if i wanted to go party with him. Me not being the party type "yet" i made some bullshit lie and said no. Sometimes though, I feel like just leaving the comptuer for one day and actually just, taking in some of todays teenage culture, like an actual party... Then again, maybe he was just trying to find a reason to take my shit somehow. Either way, i'm just pissed off today. 
