  She told me today not to try.  not to beg.  that to beg and be denied hurts too much.  that she wouldn't want to put me through that.  so all of this hope has fled.  all of it is lost.
 the life I wanted is truly gone forever.  so quit the hoping,  quit the memories from coming.  quit the pain from filling every moment.  even dying for her wouldn't be enough.  nothing would be enough.
 she's through. nbsp;  And without that hope,  I don't want to live anymore. nbsp;  I don't want this anymore.
nbsp;  I'm through too.  with everything.
