  i dont really want to say this but i had a dream last night telling me to say it. im only trying to be a good friend in this and you will appreciate in at some point in your life. i know i wouldnt have a chance to tell you in person because i never see you so here goes... this recent decision that you just made is affecting your life more than you think. you are changing into a completely different person and you may not know it. change isnt bad but knowing you, you wont like the way that you are changing if you could only see yourself. i hate to say this but you are turning into her. and as far as i know that is everything you dont want.
im not telling you to do anything because im not like that. im just telling you as a friend and someone who used to know you very well, that this just doesnt seem like you at all. it seems like you are throwing away your morals, and your opinions, and your beliefs. you seem to be contradicting them. i hope everything turns out ok in the end. until then i hope you are still yourself. *i hate to say it but you are turning into her* 
