  i thought i was bad b4 the band consert... but O MY WORD! after media i went into the hall n was standing there with pete n lizzie, n there wernt that many ppl there, but they seemed 2 all b drummers with their sticks! n there was this gorgeous pearl export fusion kit- sam funnels with lovely cymbols n all! sum guy randomly started practicing- he was like soooo gd! lizzie looked at me n i was completly white n looked like i was gonna faint! i just completly broke down n ran 2 the loos coz i randomly burst into tears! i bumped into maisie n kim on the way so they came in eith me 2 try n calm me down! ive neva been soo nervous in my life! seriously! it was about 100times worse that with h.band! i just couldnt stop the tears! i coulnt handel ne thing n felt like realy fragile, earg n *EAK* ! i mean id played each song once n had a duet with chris the amazinly amazin bassest! :S:S:S *EAK! * it wasnt the fact i didnt no what i was doin......well yea it was but it was the fact that id b playin in front of lots of other bands n drummers hu r like soo much amazinly better than me!
it just complelty freeked me n i couldnt handel it! i soo nearly ran out n just went home! but wen i got out of the toilets i went 2 meet katie at the hall n mark (amazinly gd trumboneisnt hu's really sweet) was like 'on stage now!!! ' so with red tear filled eyes i grabbed my sticks thinkin...its ok, its only 2 get me comfortable n 4 a practice!
n suddenly they took the screan away n the hall was like full of ppl! *big big eak! * mg! i was sooo :S:S:S:S! my legs were shaking so much if id tryed 2 stand..i would've collapsed! n i was all shakey! but it was ok! once we started playin blowtorch i could see maisie, laura, kim., pete n ppl n i didnt feel so bad! laura n clo both came, yay! but they missed me actually playin! *tear* (so did deaj! ) but o well!
it was gd 2 c em! we walked into town with pete,jess n matt n then left them coz they were goin 2 pizza hut n we/ i didnt wanna go with! so we went 2 the other pizza hut along near argos (dont ask y but it dus make sence! ) n we ate loads n got so hyper! hehe! it was soo gd 2 c them both again! work was quite depressin! coz my sugar leve dropped drastically , we were not that busy n i had no1 2keep me from thinkin....so then i got more depressed!
n i was carryin 2 bundels of clothes down the stairs (evil stairs) in my world of thinkin, wen i slipped soooo close 2 fallin- pulled my fkin hamstring- c im soo unamused! so im now tryin my hardest not 2 limp coz i dont wanna look like an invilid! :S:S hehe! o myword my free txts r goin down sooo quickly! i got them yesterday n i recon they'll b gone by the end of nxt week easily! prob in the nxt few days! yes i could ring instead of txting..but....no! i dont do phone convos!
hehe!
im actually constantly txting! :S:S hehe! hmmm but ne ways *blushes* hehe! im gonna go now n tlk 2 tim!
yay!
hehe the sweetness! *hehe hi on sugar again! * mum no's wen 2 cum n top me up wen im gettin down!
hehe!
Vx 
