  as of tonite im no longer going on my trip to europe. im so mad that i've been crying. mom said that maybe we can go to texas for thanksgiving again and that i can go again when im senior or after i've graduated but eventually i'll go. mom thinks that im not that ready to go and she's nervous and besides all that i havent put any effort really into getting a job yet so...its partly my fault too. but anyways im no longer going. :'( 
