  Ok. I do believe there is a god.  But what I mean to say is that people take their belief in God to the extreme.  I've spent hours thinking of things like this and I noticed that I've never had complete faith in my religion. because if you have complete faith in your religion you believe that everything that religion states,  is the right one.
Right?  For as long as I can remember I've questioned everything. and the majority of these things is my religion.  I question my religion… because I try to put the pieces together in my Catholic Church masses but nothing fits. it's just a jumble of words and meanings floating around.
 But people are ridiculously weird creatures,  we fight each other for stupid reasons. discriminate each other…  kill each other and yet I always wonder. Why are we here?  Why are we the intelligent creatures?
 Why and who started the belief of there being a God?  And why,  WHY was the bible set in the Middle East?  Why not anywhere else?  And why do we Christians,  Jews,
 and Muslims follow it?  Think logically,  if there is an almighty God in the beginning of time,  why are there not books from other parts of the world that state the mightiness of God?  The prospect of there being an Adam and Eve,  the first human beings,
 just does not fit. I look at that as a metaphoric sense of humanity. To me it's a fable. like Aesop's tales or something… I look at the Bible not as fact because we all know that we don't know who it was written by. and of course they were stories told to people who passed to people.
And we all know,  if one person tells another person a story. they change it. Imagine that process occurring for a hundred years. or maybe a thousand.  So what we are reading in the Bible is really an extremely abridged form of the original story that could be completely different as what really happened.
 I'm not saying that I'm right… or wrong I have no clue. It' just that everything about church,  how some people believe that you have to attend to go to heaven. What God is to me is a symbol of good. but some people manipulate the true meaning of God to their own beliefs…
Just everything in the world is so messed up. Just Dogma ( church rules)  killing people in the name of God?  C'mon people. God would probably most not likely want you to kill in his name.
 is I don’ t know. I should just take philosophy. nothing makes any sense anymore. Maybe I think too much that I might get an Aneurysm.  I know not a lot of people read this and I know if you do…
the majority of you may disagree with my opinions I don't know.  And above all… is there a heaven or a hell?  Or did we just make those up to confirm in our tiny little minds that there is something other than just dying?  We are all extremely imaginative human beings. and all of us are complex.
but the idea of God loving us so much. if he loves us so much. then he must love everything equally.  I've had enough of this. I've probably contradicted myself a number of times.  the oh so confused.
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