  Oh...age is an odd thing. Sometimes I wish I were younger because life was so much easier back then.
Acting immature is so much fun...maybe that's why I talk and act stupid&nbsp;a lot more when I'm by kids and preteens...I miss being young... Now everyone is now asking if I have a job and what&nbsp;I want to be or what&nbsp;secondary&nbsp;institution I would like&nbsp;to go to or&nbsp;if I have a boyfriend....Stop asking...I DON'T!&nbsp; I met someone this weekend who was really down to earth, smart, modest, funny, nice&nbsp;and cute...but young, quite a few years younger than me. And&nbsp;I kept thinking if only he were a bit older or if we were the same age, I'd probably really like him.. I finally know the meaning of teenage angst..it's just confusing..life is confusing...it's so bloody irritating. I'm in a kind of pissy mood at the moment and everything anyone does or says just pisses me off...Also to make things worse, I&nbsp;don't talk&nbsp;and when I do it's just something bitchy. Maybe I'm lonely...I haven't seen friends for a while and my sister and I've been home grounded against my will for a few weeks from the removal of my teeth... &nbsp; Sometimes I wonder if life would be easier if I were an insect or something...I mean, Can they think for themselves? Do they have extreme confusions and messed up brains and feelings and emotions like humans do? Or really all they have is a cerebellum and no cerebrum?
All they have is animal instinct, right?&nbsp; &nbsp; I'm such a brat, I have an awesome life and yet I complain, act sarcastic and cynical. I am complaining to this blog because no one wants to listen to me rave about being a confused teenager..I hope I'm better tomorrow..This sucks and usually I'm in a good positive mood (in a way I could be extremely sarcastic about that comment or very honest, that's how messed I am)&nbsp;&nbsp; Life is so weird.
&nbsp; This is totally unrelated, but that "Jesus Walks" music video by Kanye West, the one with the jail people not the one where he's in church, always gets me thinking...As much as the lyrics get stuck in my head. Everything about the video the jailers (Sayin we eat pieces of shit like you for breakfast, Huh?Yall eat pieces of shit? Whats the basis? ), the innocent children playin jump rope, the&nbsp;drug dealers&nbsp;speeding away from a cop car and the lady singing in the back, and&nbsp;to the guy&nbsp;with the burning&nbsp;cross, carrying it up the hill. Everything about the video, the song, the tune, the lyrics, kind of haunts me...yet the song and the video is eerily beautiful and symbolic in a sense.
It haunts me like that place I went to in the Philippines when I was really young&nbsp;where there were creepy statues of Jesus and Mary. &nbsp;Jesus Walk- God show me the way because the devil tryna break me down Jesus Walk With Me Telle 
