  Things Looking Dim I should have quit school when nico did better yet when mom asked me to after La Salle.
Living with Tin is my worst nightmare come to life. Not only did I have to deal with my parents who have no faith in my abilities but a person who has no faith in me as a person.
I don’t know why I have to live with her. I feel like I’d rather sink or swim. In this case, save up working GOD KNOWS where (stopping short of selling organs or whoring) just to save for my own apartment. WHILE MY ABILITY RUSTS!!! I hate rusting. I play soccer 3x a week now just to stop from rusting. I hate what it does to me and now IT WILL HAPPEN AGAIN!!! What can I do to stop it. 1. I will not bring anything of sentiment with me to the states.
I will pack my scanner, sketch board, cheap drawing supplies. 2. Finish my portfolio at all costs. Even if I have to skimp on promises to do other stuff. People will understand given that MY OLDER SISTER IS INVOLVED. 3. Learn to Draw 2 finished scetches a day. That would give me enough ability to apply for a comic artist position for paying a sum of 4,000 a month. Enough money to cover a small apartment in south jersey, where my siblings can live with me… and have a UNSTRESSFUL domestic life.
Long Term Plans… Either way, I will have to go back to the phils. Even if I may make it big in the states, COMICS doesn’t need me to be in the US to work. SO I’d rather take my 4,000 here. Learning from my mistakes and my parent’s own influence that is living with 200k a month. That’s not bad… infact that great. (this is the worse case senario… best case is earning as much as a B+ artist which is $20k a month or P1m a month) Even on a worse case senario what could I need?
(per month) Apartment in makati 40k Date Money 15k a Car Expenses (a car and van) 10k Soccer and Hobbies 10k Living Expenses 25k That’s enough money saved up for me to plan for something. Promises if I make it well to do - Donate 10% of my income to a child shelter That would be 20k… that should be enough to do a lot of good per month.
- Start Teaching: As a part time in an all boy school. Look for Kids like me (who needed help) and help them reach their dreams. They can be my players and talents to be. - Stop being bitter and grudging : yes, I will. As henry put it- “the old Justin back.” (although I hate to admit how it took me 10+ years to get over being mislead and heartbroken is rather slow… but a good indication of the character I was hoping to possess) Hopefully I get this all done by the Age of Christ.
If I get there then I’m doing something right… Looking at it… it’s a perfect blend of what my mom and dad is all about (fun and charity) 
