  I was able to talk to my chat this morning. But alas... it all had to end. Thinking Long time I went to Echelon Mall where i spent $7 on a cold cut sandwich which wasnt as good as the ones i order in WaWa but ok enough. I should have asked for more spicy mustard, horse radish. Well i got to drawing. Starting with excersizes drawing people who passed by. Drawing their faces as well as i could with just a glance and their bodies. In a country with so much obese people a person from a 3rd world country like me would get an impression that there are alot of gluttons out there. Who am i to judge, when media here and sewsawing moral and ethical attitudes drive people to find some source of comfort and take it in heavily... be it eating, sex, hobbies or just plain old money.
Like my experiences in UP. What i see when i look around is the extreems people can be. While back home it more of the extreems of poverty. Despite this footnote it wasn't this that occupied my mind most of that afternoon. There was the problem with the job again. With no experience working blue colar and with white colar jobs knowledge being limited and that I really think it will be a long and jobless 5 months. My only salvation is the new computer and old training programs of my old school skills. If tonton can get me those disks we were talking about i can practice and build a resume. In 5 months i can do something. And if no-one bothers me it can be a lot. Training Jasper Well those programs can be put to good use with jasper.
I mean jasper suffering jobless ness and a life he may not further enjoy to the fullest what better way to turn the balance if i teach him 3d graphics... Not that i am an expert but its just i know the basics and i know where to find what he needs to know. Self Training Teaching my self to draw again and draw fast is hard but i think i can relearn what i lost in the past years i stopped drawing. I guess thats the problem with MMA i didnt have time to draw. What is an arts course if i stopped drawing. I guess if i had the means I would not need a college degree. I know what i needed to finish. Its a magna opus. One great work to base my port folio in. Gino gave me the means already and with some time i can finish the pages i need. I have it all... Its just that i don't have a place to work. I can't work at christine's nor can i work at south jersey where there is no space for me. I would have to stay in the new house at jersey city. I would have to work quietly in the basement where me and jasper can sit down in a small cramped table and work.
I hope i get ton2 package in time. Heck if i can teach jasper to be an artist that would be cool. Jasper is hard working and thats most of being an artist, there is also honest appraisal. Hearing what you don't want to hear but what you need to hear. Current conditions Its cramped here at jobert room. I can't draw given the heat of the day. I bet it would be much worse in winter.
I guess i have to gain weight. But with no place to burn and build muscles i guess the north is the only place i have to be. Its ok if i don't see job or jas (if they stay south). I need to do this and I don't have much of a choice.
Living and working without them had been something i got used to and lived by back at the philippines when they both went ahead of me to the states. I just hope no body bothers me... christine the devil i'm sure will try to ruin me though. Christine the Devil My oldersister is a total hoar. Selling her soul to the highest bidder and being such a hippocrite she uses people with no remores. She implacted me and my siblings as lazy and worthless to gain favor with my parents . Favor i care nothing for but causes my parents to use us unfairly, thus she controls us indircetly through my parents. She would say: "i'm such a neat freak and you guys are making me stressed out" counter clue - 1 her car is such a mess there is no room to sit except for the driver. How can she mean that. - her place when we first arrived WAS discheveled, there was no real evidence that she was tidy. Motive she wants us to stay as her free personal maids. Made evident by her moves towards our mother, her pitty tactics, flattery, and her evident "use" of us to clean up after HER mess when she is entertaining guests.
My evil sister... the girl who used to steal from mom (and mom forgot all about it). Who never got punished and the REAL total drop out. Her plan Once we move she will take the garage... which is half of the first floor (basement like conditions)... the space relegated to me and jasper.
Unfortunately... I will be still her maid. I wont clean up after that irresponsible, cock sucking, ass fucked, hoar. She will use pitty tactics and all to get us to do stuff for her. let all the guys she asks favors for fuck her. Counter Manuever Well there is avoiding her given that there will be 3 floors. I wont go up for dinner since i have my own fridge i can cook for myself and jasper. And I KNOW HOW TO COOK. To end So hopefully in the months that follow with just one computer between me and jasper. I can teach him to be a 3d graphic artist and i can make the comic that gino and i first planned to make, design my d20 system in the philippines setting AND beef up for the winter months. 
