  i'll post pictures as soon as i get to tita imelda's house (or jobert's comp) I am here. And guess who is it that huge thorn that is here with me making matters worse. Those who know me from way back know that my older sister is the devil’s bitch incarnated. I have never met anybody who would gladly sell their soul for the right price, who can wear the mask of bitch at the same time try to guilt you into helping, a person with no redeeming quality.
I have to admit that I cannot stand her and how she treats my brothers and other people. She is those pillars of corruption that make the world a sadder place to be in. Patience, is all I have to do is disappear. She loves using people, what happens when people stopped letting themselves be used... THE WHOLE WORLD WOULD BE A BETTER PLACE!!!. On other more important things... I got really dizzy in the flight.
I learned early on that all one needs to do is focus on something... something important and dear to them. I got through it all with the thought someone would be beside me. Someone, will be there and someone who misses me the way I miss her. I don’t know why but this was the best thing to happen to me when I enter a new world filled with fear: someone in my thoughts to hold on to.
I know there are no promises made. I know that a week from now, a month or a year would change so many things and this might change as well. But for all that it is worth, this is the way I feel now, I don’t know what else to feel but this terrible distance... I do not feel loss yet. I can still smell her. I can’t miss her too badly, she just kissed me yesterday, and I can’t think of anything else but how much I mean those words I keep telling her. Those words that are so corny and have lost their meaning to so many people as time goes bye, but words that never fails to say how simple and great I feel.
Nothing else gives me so much courage than her. 
