  Mom reprimanded me for not being responsible. How did I feel, nothing, not even regret or guilt. Why should I feel such when I feel her trample over everything I care about. I sound like a teenager. I guess a teenager is any adult locked up with their parents with out any earning power. It’s that simple, I don’t respect them or care. There is nothing about reaching out that would help. As popey would say: “I have taken’s enough and I can’t take’t no more.”.
To bad I have nothing to escape with but my work which is suffering as I feel like such an empty well. Dry and milked for all the inspiration and wonder it can give. 4:39 am later I would go to Newport mall and buy another wire and a wire to wire connection. 50ft should be enough to connect this room to the living room floor. I can’t count on cable internet since I would have to wait till Friday and I don’t want to owe Christine anything.
I’m going down slowly. I cant take being away from the internet given that I usually find a lot of things to do, given that I have a blog and I love putting little details about what I do for the sake of remembering and times I read my blog to remember how it was and what was going through my mind. I guess when I get a job I will have to limit my internet time to an hour every two days. Given that I will excersize at least 30mins worth. Hmmm… things I should do 9 hours sleep (just in case I oversleep) 30 mins of work out 30 mins of internet updating and writing 30 mins of game preparation 1:30 hour of meals 2 hours of wasted time that I cannot control.
1 hour travel time (back forth and errands) 10 work ($40: at least!!! Please god help me get a job to get on my feet; already excluding meals) on other days I work on my drawings keeping as much as an hour to 2 hours used on it. I assume there will be times of dead time in work… I can use to write in my notepad or sketch. New Hobbies: Collect Comics again… specifically graphic novels. Now to find one that will catch my fancy. 
