  AAAAAAAAARG!!! My friendster is not working well. I can’t access the posts I get and I can’t finish what I was supposed to do there. I feel like I have my priorities mixed. Oh well. Mom has been talking to me. She asks how my work is and if I’m doing well.
I am, I told her… I can’t help feel like I’m just what I am… an intern. I just hope the guys here give me the hours I need… That’s all I’m after. Too bad Russell turned down to give me the hours while I prepared his GURPS monsters and equipment for him. ALL that for the cost of writing I helped him out… which is a technical… good thing. It should count as OJT hours for school, creating the character portraits, maps and diagrams. I am making a presentation (a game!!!). I wish somebody just gave me that job… I’d have more time left over to do my thesis. I wouldn’t feel too frazzled to draw. I so desperately want my projects over and done with… I’m planning to submit my HW late, that way I can see what everybody else did. Its all about working smart not working hard. That’s what makes a good student. Although I want to show of my good ideas, I feel like I’m to advanced for the class. I play with psychological concepts when they all think MTV style. I want long term. ATTRACT the business end… that’s what makes a school worth going to.
The more involved the school is with the industry the more prominent the skills of their students are and the more pressure there is to excel. Thinking out of the box. That’s what RPGs teach you. Well Table top ones… I’m sorry for the consul players but hacking at monsters all day isn’t my view of a learning experience. I get more of a kick when I acquire a new skill than wasting my time killing monsters which I can do with my imagination… Speaking of imagination look… I just flew, I gave a chick a like a great time on a date, I saved the world… wow, see powerful imagination is.
And people pay a lot of money to have what other people just dream up. That’s advertising and that’s the job of all artists. The trick is all about MORE BANG PER BUCK. Coming from a frugal mother, I learned that what makes your money worth while or anything else is how much you can milk from it.
RPGs have been milked to the point of altering what it is or what it used to mean. What was once a catharsis is now a learning experience. I loved the way bobby gave the spot light to JY who has a hard time articulating and rewarded him for the brave effort. …. Oh shit back to work 
