  I just came from larp... i have a better understanding how socializing works here and the structure feels like. I guess its funny that i am analyzing it but Comming from back home where people are more hushed and less opinionated i wanted to know the limits of one can talk about. I understand now that its easier to meet people here once you get into a circle... unlike back home... people will be always cautious... i meet some girls who i feel afraid for... if only the Jerks I know back home were here... they would eat them up... and they would just be asking for it (and maybe more)... I notice a greater range of vulnerability and guard here. I guess thats why this place can turn out pretty impressive individuals given that there are more experiences on can drink... Its not htat i was meant to live here or anything.
I learned and mastered socializing back home... its just that here its all different... its learning a new system Its interesting... i don't take alot of things seriously here... which allows me to get along with more people. I guess its cool. But i still want to give my honest and exact opions... the way i am with my friends back home... but still i think it would be a while to find people of that kind of ilk...
I have to admit it is easier here to talk... cause you just talk... ON OTHER MUSHY THINGS I miss chat... again... but having no jobs keeps my mind preoccupide. I still need to deserve it. I know what I have and I am the luckiest man for it. I'l try to get a job at south jerey first. If i can find one and apply ASAP... i can stay here. There is a soccer field a short way from tita's house.
I clean the dishes allong with jasper so its all cool with her. I can be in jasper's room. and we can keep things comfortable. I do things now... for myself, but mostly because of someone else... it bears greater meaning now. I think of how Time can change things... The pain and suffering... i don't think you can call it that when your with someone... i think you just say "thats life". Taking the sweet with the bitter is so much better when your not the only one taking it. 
