  CURRENT CRAP I want to play GURPS. I know they are not the most newbie friendly system but you have to love its exacting properties. The logic and system is great… there is almost no way to MIN MAX since the disadvantages requires the GM to deal with the players heavy handedly… people think twice before taking one. I like it more than the D20 mechanic and hope that one day… I can put GURPS on the map with several design mods I have in mind that requires less rolling, and newbie friendly. For now… since I really can be there to join and help I’m contented to use several of the designs I have for my own game system which is newbie friendly. TABOO TOPIC About guys and getting horny. Well recently a bunch of my male friends have had a increase in recreation requirements.
I’ve noticed that I feel somewhat… well horny. I don’t get it though. Its been what… 9 months since I last got some, three years before that and sex wasn’t as good as I remember it (maybe cause I’m not a teenager anymore). So why am craving? I mean, I’ve never been desperate enough to count my money and consider booty. When I was in high school I didn’t know anything about women and held the pretty ones on a pedestal. When I was in college I had crushes that nearly made me insane. When I had my first girlfriend I wanted to marry her and have kids as soon as I get a job and leave college. After her I wanted to be single for life. On my second girlfriend I thought of having a relationship for the simplicity of companionship.
After her I grew over being lonely and realized how great it was being single. My last crush taught me that women I liked tend to crush my spirits unintentionally and tear away my will to live (he heh). Looking back… and being were I am makes me ask the question “am I going through some phase… if it is I don’t want to recur.” RELATIONSHIPS Among my circle of friends and acquaintances I have learned how to maintain a relationship or the intimate nature.
I know the requirements and what effort it entails, what to remember and how far should I go to help her and understand her. My heroes are the nice guys, People who have been able to carve a piece of their share of happiness out of this terribly frightful reality. I was always happy to watch, listen and be there. I always admired how far they went to do what they thought was good and better in the long run. Its just that I have taken a step too far and find myself unable to comprehend ever being in a relationship.
In the age and the level I am now, I have to justify what I do in long term results. Example; My hobby is time consuming and cheep, perfect for a guy who tends to be strapped for cash and easily bored. My skills and my lifestyle makes me flexible enough to take grunt work with humility. I guess I see no point in one. Other than physical pleasure, I guess… but that would make me dependent on the person as a source of one… not to mention when the supply leaves what happens to me after. The great thing about sex is that like all experiences, they dull/or exaggerate with time, being unable to distinguish what it really is, it makes it easier for me to go on without it despite how much I used to be addicted to it. An intercepting thought: The girls I really like make me like them more when their bitchy… to the point of dramatic violence… then the thought of….
Just comes to mind. Damn it must be the cold in here. HOPES BY 30 I hope by 30… … I have at least a 30 dollar an hour job… with my degree and ability in all. … to have at least 5 books out or the equivalent of that much work out. … I have a big enough place for my brother and I, and our friends who will be staying over for a short while. …Have a completed a small work out gym. …I will bulked up and balded, with a goatee and mustache …I have mastered my arnis enough to try joining tournaments again. …I get a really good dentist. …Have my own customized suit of plate mail, modern combat body armor (Kevlar) and high quality swords. …Sports goggles to replace my glasses. …I only have to work on my day job 20 hours a week. …My other source of Income is Game related. … all my friends live nearby so that I can visit as well they can visit. 
