  Shit happens… It is strange how it all happened. When I came back from the office I find out that the fuse I gave them blew and the motherboard is not responding.
I was about to have a breakdown till Tim told me it is still salvageable. That the motherboard can still be saved but the power supply must be replaced. I’m go to go to Laguna to see Patrick. I haven’t seen him in a while and this is a good opportunity. Trisha is coming with me so I have kasama… I know henry can’t go cause of class i wanted the more the merrier... being how i like crowds of freinds.
After that I will scrape some money to buy a power supply and learn to install it. I hope I can get all the materials together by the end of that long afternoon. Majed seems too busy to play which is ok by me. Its less work in my overworked week. MAGIC… I knew it was going to happen. I know I won’t graduate despite how hard I tried. And I gave it all. I went through people who used me and milked me for money I did not own to improve my performance in school by getting a computer that I don’t need to leave to render or save a file.
Its just sad my parents won’t ever believe how hard I tried and school won’t reflect my abilities as it was designed to and how hard I tried to follow that design. But my dad doesn’t believe in luck or bad luck… its just that I feel something really good will happen… something like an incredibly lucky that will make this all turn around and the bad things that happen are just there to make it so much sweeter.
I rolled a ten when I called it. Like a wish a small insignificant wish. I think me and gino will be discovered on the seminar. Someone will say they need us and will be letting us have a chance to publish as we get our act together. Someone will go up to us and hand us the brass ring and make all the fears of our parents (not our fears) go away.
He will give it to us like an angel from heaven. We will toil and sweat and be sleepless to make a work of God. And all this pain, this misery will disappear. I feel it in my bones… and Gino I’m sure knows it will happen soon. This year will be the year when our patience will be rewarded. The die roll was an omen… and this is my prayer 
