  I was able to web cam with chat again. :D yay! At least once a week is a good enough frequency till I get a better internet connection. I miss her so much i got a freaky dream. Its a good and twisted sign I guess of being obsessed about my gf from this distance. Another Weird Dream I dreamed there was this kid who was out having fun.
Its supposed to be the far future and he didn’t know his fun would lead to dangerous consequences for the whole world. I was like a ghost, a silent observer to all that was happening. The kid as out partying and his car was stolen. When his car was stolen he was able to catch the car-jacker with his guard down. The wrestled control of the car and he “gingered” or whipped it in a way that he fell out surviving the crash and the car-jacker careened into high way tunnel dangerously near a nuclear power plant. It was at the same time that the government was unstable and that opponents of a stable government was looking for an excuse to topple the current leaders.
The kid wandered into a hospital. Security was on a red alert as the accident escalated into a disaster. The car exploded where as it’s explosion was too close to what was a red security zone which already had problems. The kid was trying to hide his wounds and scars. He was washing the blood of the guy out of his clothes. It was supposedly against the law because they needed forensic evidence of how all the events came to be.
Eventually he was caught. And he confessed what happened. He even confessed that he didn’t know if he really meant to kill the guy when he whipped the car into that speed. Somehow, that made things a little better. The higher ups were directly engaged in the matter and after studying the kids testimony found a way to lessen the damage, but they had to act fast. One of them (the higher ups) was already dying and his “friends” knew this.
They planned to have some one, another supposedly good guy, replace the old guy who wont live through night in one move along with the move to block their enemies from taking advantage of their weekend state. I was supposed to be an engineer. I was with chat and we have been together for only a year. It was a short time after being so far apart. It was supposedly up to me and my other colleagues. One guy had a daughter he was worried about, the other guy had still his whole life ahead of him.
Chat was always my partner in these dreams. She was also an engineer (I guess it establishes how far fetched the dream is). There was this problem with fixing the plant at its given state, there was a time limit and in a like scheduled manner was lethal at a given time. The guy who had a daughter’s wife died just yesterday fixing it. It seemed that it was meant to us to fix everything or die trying. It was so bleak, everything looked old and forgotten.
The powerplant had little light coming through what windows it had… like raid continued to pour outside. Me and Chat had to make a decision bigger than ourselves on the word of these men in power, who I could not completely trust. I was thinking we should just run away, this problem should not be ours to deal with. I wanted to choose life, but there was no one else who was going to do it. This friend of mine lost his wife to the radiation and this guy with no future is going to. “Why can’t he stay for his daughter?” was going through my head I guess it dawn on me now that his daughter will not be able to escape the blast.
So it was us and the ancient powerplant. I saw the kid, he was so sorry for all the trouble he caused, I could not blame him cause it was all an accident. I could have been the kid and I would have hated all this crap to be on my shoulders. Two friends, Chat and I went inside the power plant. We were working on it trying to fix it on time. I remember how intense it felt because it was both Chat and I manning the booth behind the isotopes.
The two other guys were in their suits trying fighting against time to fix it. Chat stumbled into the recording of the guy’s wife. She had enough time to get out in the video which recorded her final moments. She didn’t go out? I was puzzled why she didn’t go out? She was working desperately to beat the flash or radioactivity that goes through the plant every once a day.
She could have given up and left… yet she didn’t go out. We saw everything turn red as the alarms went off. It was time and we didn’t have enough of it. We should leave now but if we do, the plant wont get fixed. It was a mystery what keeps this ancient juggernaut working. So we made the decision to stay.
They were chat’s friends too and we knew there was nothing out there if we left but waiting for death in some other manner, unlike fighting it today. When the radiation flash happened I could not breathe and all the light in the room brightened to a blinding white. I was beside chat and we bother felt ourselves fall with the same feeling you feel on a rollercoaster ride. When it all happened, we didn’t feel pain or have a lingering death. It was instantaneous and strange. We found ourselves still in the plant… its seemed to be at night and everything closed up.
We tried to go out but the doors are locked and the windows indestructible. It was taking us a while to realize that we might just be ghosts trapped here. I was shuddering at the thought, at least I’m with chat… to bad you cant have kids and raise a family when your dead. Too bad the scenery will be this factory for ever. Then the oddest thing happens, the doors open in the morning of the next day. The wife of our friend is there to greet us.
And we walked outside the plant to where other people are “going” to work. I didn’t understand… these faces I saw were those who died working in the plant prior to us. All of them, and they seemed like it was just another day at work. Their expressions were that of understanding and happiness. They had that pat in the back for a job well done, but you don’t know what you did? The wife of our friend was about to explain what happened when I woke up from the noise of street cleaners.
I could not continue the dream after wards. Looking Back The boy said something like: “you cant say you will overcome temptation till you’ve encountered it” not that insightful but strangely something I should remind myself of. The temptation is really strong when it presents itself even when you have given your word… I usually close my eyes and shrug it off. The mistake there is that I should understand why I am not going to let my self fall into it. “What is the cost of falling?” is the lesson to be learned from what he said. Lesson from the dream… its scary but it was like a precept if I was in that situation.
Honestly, if it was up to me, I would buy the first ticket for me and chat out of the fall out radius. I was looking back at the effects of that kind of explosion, the one in Chernobyl, I realized that those people who we (me and chat in the dream) we walked in their shoes in were rewarded and there was a happy ending for them. Its like glimpsing their heaven. I guess I failed to realize that everything was in secrecy and nobody was warning the people about the plant’s failure. I could feel it already leaving my memory... its hard to hold on to a memory of a dream. 
