  Weird dream : It was all about how in far off future where resources are scares. I was selling everything I had (which all are meant be recycled) for some spare cash. In an pragmatic society I am the only artist, suffering and not making any headway for my self. The Dream before that was Twisted, dark and very personal.
It was a situation where I was supposed to betray someone. Strangely enough I’m going along with it, the part I hate is that it may come true in the future. With no real emotional anchor when I leave, I can see myself change in a way I would despise myself. I don’t know what to do to stop what may be inevitable. Life gets complicated when you grow up. My last thoughts before I slept was how I can’t imagine myself in a place with some one I care deeply about. There is always the realization that this person: must pity, or she happens to be in a place in time where I am just a passing fancy, that there are always reasons with in reasons why some one would be with someone else.
There is no reason for “it”. There is no reason for feeling “that” way. Everything doesn’t last and the needs of the real world will always come first. OF course that’s what I didn’t believe before. I guess when some you truly cared about failed you. You tend to think the worse of every situation. Its not that I was wrong… I hate being right in these matters.
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