  This blog may sound weird to anybody who reads it. Simply cause it is. I’m neither trying to be a philosopher nor a whiner.
I happy that only the people who matter read this from time to time and it would hardly be a title nor layout that would stand out. Appearance Appearance is always important. It is the measure by which we place anyone who comes into our sights.
How beautiful or How handsome someone is will always add to the weight of their character despite the matter that it shouldn’t. Appearance is much like wealth in the sense that it will open doors, turn heads and determine if you are good or evil. Another of my insecurities is appearance. Whose mother always says their beautiful or Handsome? I’m sure a lot of us get this compliment from our parents. Among friends, we get a better gauge of how we look, I mean real friends, not those who would give you a handjob so that you’ll do the same for them.
It dawn on me one day how I really looked like. It takes a while to have an accurate image of one’s self when opinions can vary in accuracy. When I reached that realization, I couldn’t recognize who was that person I was looking at. I really felt that, literally. BUT I knew where I stood when I’m ever gauged with a bunch of other guys. No illusions, just hard and in your face truth. I also realized that a person’s face has so much to do with what kind of person they are. When this evil evil dork is compared to me… he is a better looking man flat out. I mean this is a guy who is against my moral and ethical fabric and women swoon over this guy. Hell, he asks them to sleep with them behind his GF’s back.
They know he has a GF, but he also has brains and cunning. He’s is (I do admit) a cunning liar, but not cunning enough for me and the guys, but cunning enough for girls 2-5 years younger (of course he chooses his prey to be the weakest and most gullible I said he was cunning didn’t I).
And this guy is better looking than me… HA!!!! Women who can’t see through that deserve this creature. (ok that was mean and I don’t realy mean that, but I sure feel like it). He he… Truth be told if you ask me point blank about what I like my ideal woman I’ll lie. When I say it here… honestly and with out any bull shit… my answer. I want a woman whose eyes I can see in the children I will never father. HAHA!!! Yeah! Sweet. That’s the truth. I have an issue with looks…. YeAH like who doesn’t….
When I think of eating issues I think of… Chocochaty, Chippychocochay, ChompchompChatChicharonChatty… Its funny cause she lists down what she eats and it freaks me out, and freaks me out cause I eat thrice as much and still hold a 135lbs at 5’9”. YABANG KO NO! (im lucky she doesn’t read this post. He he…) I watched south park’s Fellowship of the LOTR. It was sooo fucking funny… I love southpark and derogatory humor in general. If you get to know me you’ll see that side, when I start teasing.
Its infectious cause I got that sense of humor from Kezo and if you find me funny, kezo will slay you. Short anecdote: Justin-“henry, I couldn’t believe it. It was the best date in my life and she just texted and texted someone the whole time we were together.
I guess she didn’t find that much of a date” Herny “ Aw c’mon its not that bad, she laughed at your jokes right?” Justin “Yeah, I mean I really made her laugh but when we were eating and I tried to talke she would be just texting and I would find myself just waiting like a obedient lapdog” Henry “Naku! You should have told her ‘hey I bought your food and I’m taking you out! Its JUSTIN TIME! ITS JUSTIN TIME’” he made a high whinny voice while an expression of a baby having a tantrum.
I just laughed my head of… Justin “ I even sent a two page letter of how much I liked her, that was stupid, hopefully its to long for her and she might be intimidated to read” Henry “ Ikaw ha pa 2 page letter kappa, baka she really likes you and you just closed the door to soon.” “She could be going “’I don’t want to make the first move cause he will think I’m easy… why, why did he send this letter what does this mean? Oh no Justin doesn’t like me anymore” in a silly voice. OK that is torture to a guy like me, I am not a violent man but I could almost not restrain myself and kill the bastard the chance I got.
Giving someone hope despite how silly it may sound wears down a person’s defenses and eventually gets to them. I found it so funny as welll cause he had to know me pretty well to know that it would get to me.
BTW in the end… the girl really didn’t like me and found me too weird. (I really have to keep telling myself this cause Kezo’s voice echoes in my head) Although up to now, henry still plays that joke and still makes me want to kill him. People really have a hard time getting over failures in general, knowing how to bring that out in a terrible way (or funny way) has mixed consequences. In the end I got mostly over it, in fact I found myself putting her down from the pedestal cause the “Justin time” gag was so petty I understood how much she must have gone out with me out of pity.
Despite my integrity… Pity gave me a date… I will not be ungrateful. 
