  Well thanks everybody. I guess the bartending is a no-no. A guy pushing that hard and repeating the same sales pitch makes you wonder if they can prove it. Good thing i have no money. Anyway. I had a wierd dream its. It begins with some old crushes and a national celebration. I was helping in the filming of a movie. I was helping in the areas of sound and video editing. It came as a suprise when a crush of mine got pregnant. She had nobody to call the father. I guess its because he left before he knew or something i could not think off yet.
I was one of her guy friends and helped raise the kid. The funny thing about it is that this was during the time i was preparing to get ready for my own family. Please remember that this is just a dream. Raising my own kid and another kid who i treated like my own felt kinda warm and fuzzy. My *wife* (hehe he) was ok with it since she lived nearby and it did not take too much of our time. BTW they were both girls. (I'm more clueless about raising girls than boys) While all this other complication is happening MY dad's eccentricities have been getting the family in trouble and all we can do its ride it out. From selling the movie's (we are still making) rights and somene throwing my comedy ideas out of the window as we were under new management.
That pissed me off, and the worse part was i got less money out of the deal since my ideas were thrown out. I was down. But going home to my family + 2 was a pretty good thing. I realized since i worked at home half the time and my wife and friend also worked. I took care of the kids the most. Handling two babies was pretty time consuming and ate up my work.
Thank god i wasn't the only bread winner. I woke up but the last thought on my mind was asking my wife if we can ask our friend to move in with us to save money and since this family is getting pretty close. I guess the answer would depend on how my friend and wife would be getting along or how close they are as friends to agree with the idea. the last image was me and two babies. smiling for a picture. It was like i was the father of 2 kids (who were born a month apart).
Yesterday It was so windy it tore a page from my sketch book. I was calorie counting again and found myself people watching when we were in the mall. it feels wierd when you do see more than half the people here obesse. IT sucks cause if you come from a 3rd world country it looks like the people here ARE having to much and are not sharing.
NOT that sharing is something they should do. I believe that pitty is not an answer but the genuine help for those who are being oppressed and are voicing their struggle. I want to watch the new michel moore doc. too bad its too expensive here in the north. Job My options are down to security gaurd (half to go to training as usual). Sinice i lithe compared to the average american they might make me an office guard or something "whimpy" i dont mind. I just want the spare time to draw or study. 
