  One drawing. Just one Run of the mill drawing… I must find a catharsis and fast. I don’t get any creative inspiration. I’ve been reading starman and in terms of story its great, layout its great, but art… well it good plus but not the bomb. I need to study more but I don’t have time. I learned early one that finishing means accepting some mistakes and getting better as I go. But It takes a while to understand some mistakes. Especially here at home.. where its just too bland to help me creatively. I guess my standard of art would be a Warhammer art by Adrian Smith(did I get that right). Now that’s wow art. As an illustrator he is great but I learned that its harder to be a comic artist. Especially being an artist doing comics. Its hard with the 2 pages a day but with computer games a sleeping habits I can get inspired. Too bad I don’t have warhammer stuff and enough gothic adventures to get me in the mood.
I haven’t had a GM that got me so riled up since Bobby Navaro with his warhammer game. DAMN, it takes energy… but running one generates energy as well. I want to run GURPS 4th ed when I go to the states. Screw D20… I’m a gurps guy eversince I saw the book back in 1997 in the states. I bought it and tough as nails… learned it. It was hard from a DND point of view and the fact that it was a book with a college reading level.
But I learned enough to have fun. I have to say it is still the hardest game to cheese. Which makes it the best game for me. White wolf is too easy cause everyone is too lax with the rules… you pay for the rules right… if I don’t then what stops my player or my gm from screwing with me?!? Yeah that’s the good aspect of a rules lawyer… and pushing the GM to work harder and allowing him to perfect his craft.
Anyhow… just trying to relax… I just made the outlines of the next lets say 8 drawings I’m going to try to make today. Hopefully I recover. I want inspiration… where the fuck am I going to find it. DREAM Had a dream I had a GF… whoa long time ago kind of thing… must be from reading starman. Anyways… we have a kid and I’m happily ever after and all. Except that I’m dying which isn’t so bad… so I work the shit of me and try to find a way to make a ton of money out of it.
In the end I’m fading and my GF (not wife) and son have no mortgage to worry off and enough money for a start at college. Not bad…too bad my kid won’t grow up to be a gamer.. In the dream I died when he was four or something… to young to learn to game. That would suck… 
