  Well here I am again. In class doing this instead of listening. I can’t help it. I’m worried sick because of my project. What I need is a producer, someone who can direct me in what to do. Either that or the other way around, someone to do what I need to do.
I can’t be both. My attention narrows when I work so I can’t remember what priority my action was in the list of thing I have to do. Dream: Damn I dreamed of my Ex. Well the first one. Its like she wanted to get back together again. Two years ago I would be her willing slave, now I’ve changed so much I don’t even know who she was. People say when you love the memory would last forever. Wow, so I didn’t love her. I remember having so many stories about her that would make other guys knock their head back in surprise. Now I don’t know a thing about her. I just know that I had a girlfriend when I was in my second year of college. The experienced is there ingrained, at least the lessons learned. I guess this actually goes for other guys.
I mean, some guys are considered jerks or strange to other women when they try building a relationship. I can understand that some scars are old and deep and become some irrational fear. I wish I discovered the joys of drinking when I had my first break up. Brain damage is not as bad as people think, healing means putting something new on something painfull and destructive. PLANS When I move back to the states I hope to start a game setting with my brothers as a part time job. I’ll be the Producer and head investor. Jobert can be the creative and literary force, I’ll draw and write a little but my place would be in getting things scheduled and done. Jasper’s task can be human resource, and basic management. Together we are creating a miniature line, setting, and RPG company that would fill a small niche.
A setting where RPGs will dictate the story and miniature battles will dictate the outcome of war. 2 elements that coordinate to create a rich and interactive setting where the players determine the direction of the story along with the GMs and have every opportunity to settle wars and epic battles. A stepping stone to making a small company. While I do this… I plan to also help Gino in penciling his graphic novel.
I just hope I finish quickly enough to make all my requirements by march and begin the process of RELEARNING my drawing. I love the fact that in America, you don’t have to go to college. If I was born there I would have just joined the army, learned military discipline, gotten a blue collar job and work with my head in my spare time. Its either that or become a cop. That to would be fun. BTW I CANNOT ACCESS MY Homail cause the internet in school is too slow 
