  Well yesterday was GREAT!!! I spent the WHOLE DAY in perpetual bliss. Wow, It great to be alive! I’m so happy, words escape me. I found out something new, found out something else, and found something there I didn’t see before. I slept 7 hours and I’m up and at ‘em.
I don’t know why, but things balanced out. By Friday I will back to zero, and what I have earned will be gone. That sucks. I don’t think that will happen again. I wish I could have done more. I wish I stayed.
… BUT I NEED A JOB. I NEED A CAREER. Then I would feel like I DESERVE to stay, and I would feel like I would DESERVE what was given to me. Till then, I pray for success. I have all the cards now. I very happy that the only thing missing is something I can get from hard work.
What I have now, may never have come despite the role of fate. 
